I've lost my train of thought.

[Ugly Casanova]

It tipped off the tracks, trumbled down a hill, and all the inhabitants are dead.

I'll get straight to the point, for a month I haven't been able to think a single thought that had any clarity or purpose. I recently tried to find the cause of this phenomenon and came to the conclusion that I am stressed beyond measure. From my break up with my boyfriend to my pregnant sister moving in, it seems like I can never catch a break. Though I understand some things happened for the good, like the end of my relationship. However, I fail to see why I am suffering because my sisters boyfriend didn't read the directions on a pack of condoms.

I think you'll understand more if I gave a unique description of every person that is currently living in my house.

Arent: My father and the bread winner of the family. He is 70 years old and has father seven children. My father is a Pieces and we get along great. We fight, then turn around the next five minutes and apologize. I've always went to my father when I had a problem. I was confident that no matter how big or small the problem was, he would help me the best way he could.

However, my father is 70. I know he wouldn't live forever. I know within the next year, five years, or maybe ten, he will die and I will be left on my own to solve my problems. Maybe this is what I'm frustrated and stressed about? I can't help but think he should of raised me to be more indentpent. Though, I can't blame him. I never wanted to be. I always saw my dad as invincible and now I realize that that was a huge mistake on my part.

Diana: She's my step mother. She's also an attempted murder. She always puts nuts ( I'm allergic to almonds and wal-nuts ) in things I like to eat and salt in food when she knows my father can't consume it, due to his high blood pressure and cholesterol. She never bends to anyone else’s opinions or ideas, because in her mind they are wrong and she is right. She's also a religious fanatic. She's the worse type of Christian there is, a Christian that follows the church and not the word of God. Infact, I wouldn't be surprised if she never read the Bible. However, this doesn't mean she never judges. She does it often as a matter of fact. Mainly, her judgmental ways are against me and Greg ( who is Jewish ). She often tells us we are going to go to hell because of we believe in.

I know this is one of the factors of my stress. Everything I do is a sin in her eyes and I deserve to burn in the pits of hell. If I put too much cheese on my grilled cheese sandwich, it's both greed and gluttony.

Sarah: She doesn't really bother me as much as she did. The only thing that annoys me is her stuffing her bra when Greg and Kendrick moved into my house. However, it's not enough to annoy me to make me stressed. So, we're going to move on.

Greg: My friend and perhaps a romantic interest. He's been living in my house for a little over a month. He was thrown out of his apartment and is in debt up to his knees. Hopefully, he'll be able to afford an apartment soon. Until then, he continues to live in my house.

The problem here is, this man is absolutely in love with me and have been for four years. Like I mentioned before, I just got out of a relationship and I'm not sure if I'm ready for another. This is frustrating, because in one moment I want to, then the next I want to try and live indentpent.

Another problem is, Greg just turned 25 a week ago. Like he mentioned before, he's not looking for a girlfriend anymore, but for a wife. This kind of scared me, for the fact that I attend to keep relationships going for years ( I'm not counting my last one, because it was 8 months of wasted time ). Knowing this, I would more then likely get attached to Greg within a year and perhaps want to marry him. I'm 19 years old, I think I'm far too young get married.

I know this is stressing, but not as much as you think. If I had to scale it on a meter from 1 to 10, I would say it was a 3.

Kendrick: My brother and also a Pieces. We get along great. He's like a more younger version of my father. He doesn't annoy me much. He's usually kept to himself or busy doing school work ( He goes to GSU ). So, there's no problem that I can see, so moving on.

Andrea and Rusty: My sister and her boyfriend. This is where the bulk of my stress comes from. My sister is four months pregnant and expects everyone to get on their knees when she walks into a room. It's either her way or no way and now that she's pregnant, she tried to enforce this rule with an iron fist. Unfortunately for her, no-one is falling for it or giving in. Thus, making her 10x more bitchy then ever. She also uses her pregnancy as an excuse for her mood swings, when everyone else knows it's just what kind of person she is.

Now that she has this Rusty character living in the house, things have gotten out of hand. He doesn't come home until 2 in the morning and claims he's working. Rusty works construction. He doesn't work from 5 in the morning to 2 in the morning the next day.

The problem is, when he comes home. My sister clamors on and on. They fuss and fight with each other. Greg, Kendrick, and I hear everything, because our rooms are next to theirs. It's extremely frustrating when you go to school, work, and trying to sleep.

I'm not even going to go into them bring a bong in the house....I'll just let you come up with whatever was next.

So, there it is. Technically, you can say that is a day in my life. Now you people know why I'm so moody at night.

[The Man]

Bloody hell, you'd do best to get out of there as soon as possible, imho. Sure you can't start uni earlier than you're already planning to? Like over the summer or something? That'd probably be for the best.

[Ugly Casanova]

Greg is often talking about getting an apartment and letting me live there, but yea. I don't know if that will help.

[The Man]

That sounds like it could just lead to more confusion

[Ugly Casanova]

Well, I only have 3,000 bucks saved up. No where near enough to live off of.

[The Man]

Yeah. :/ Will you be living on campus once you do get into university?

[Ugly Casanova]

Yes. Hopefully..However, my dad is talking about me getting an apartment in Atlanta. Problem, he doesn't want me to live in a dump. Which is all we found around GT.

[The Man]

Meh, you'd probably be happier living on campus anyway.

[Necro]

I've lived [and most of the time still do] with a total of 6 people before, unfortunately, all women from the ages of 16-27, not including my mother. God, I want to run away badly =\. Weirdly enough, the only place left I could run to is packed with another set of females :[

How on earth do you cope? I feel like killing them...all.

[Ugly Casanova]

Every now and then, I bite on glass.

[The Man]

Originally Posted by .aistx

I've lived [and most of the time still do] with a total of 6 people before, unfortunately, all women from the ages of 16-27, not including my mother. God, I want to run away badly =\. Weirdly enough, the only place left I could run to is packed with another set of females :[

How on earth do you cope? I feel like killing them...all.

Are any of them hot and not related to you? If not, gutted.

[Necro]

Never tried that. The more classic approach of cutting yourself for attention seems the way, though I don't want to be noticed that much =\ I'll go with the glass thing.

Originally Posted by The Man

Are any of them hot and not related to you? If not, gutted.

None what so ever. Friends pretty much, or something like that. And HELL YES. Though by now they seem like family, kinda feels wrong..

[itcouldbesweet]

Originally Posted by Metzger Musik

Yes. Hopefully..However, my dad is talking about me getting an apartment in Atlanta. Problem, he doesn't want me to live in a dump. Which is all we found around GT.

Our city makes over 2 million $$$ in parking violations alone.

[Ugly Casanova]

If I lived in Atlanta...I wont have a car. It would seem silly if I did.