Not a Rant more of a Thought

[Chaotic Lionheart]

I lost the use of my legs for more than a week and was bedridden for days on end watching the world go by all the while as my world seem to slow down.I lost my girl I loved for many years and broke up with to go with another girl months ago came back to her because I truly loved her but because of what i did before it tore her up inside but I knew this so did she but we still went out but ended as it should but now we don't talk at least for now but it leads me to think and wonder not just on the fact of love but the attraction between men and women and everything between and far.


Why? I'm the outside looking in now why do we do things to each other why do we do anything..fight,cower,feel,
does it make life worth living,does these feeling and actions mean were alive?
Is this it to do thing that we think is right and stray away from things that are deemed bad?
What makes things bad,the physical pain of another person?Emotional distress within?Doubt?Economical discomfort?
Who decides these things?Leaders?Political heads?Scientists?the person sitting next to you?A person who has higher intelligence
And what gauges you a smart? A degree?The way you speak?What you know what you dont? is this what life is about one uping the other guy/girl,
living a comfortable life with the ones we love ,


Who knows......I don't for once I don't know anymore I thought I knew it all knowing that my life holds no value in the world that I am only one man that my death will only make a small ripple and become a wave that wave will crash against the shore and stop.If i did die many will feel sorrow, others happiness but one thing will remain constant the memory of me will fade as days,months,years go by then I'll only be remebered one day of the year then those who know me will die then it keep going until the next generation won't remember those who came before them..........


......Life is so precious only because it's so short...Death is eternal that's why we fear it and avoid it....why?

Not me I won't fear death,heartache,anything bad because it's just the world works bad things happen to everyone not just good people...
I'm done

Later