Dunno if I should take this....

[AuroraVirtuaFighter]

Okay. You all know about my school phobia (a.k.a. Phazon corruption) so there's no need for me to go on and on about that again, right? Well, today, I FINALLY saw a psychoanalyst for it. FINALLY. So I talked to the dude, praying silently that he could find a way to take away the horrifying Kryptonite that kills me every year from September until June. And he made this suggestion about a special school at a "day hospital." I and Samus started to panic because I thought he was gonna put me in a mental institution, but he said this was NOT a mental institution or an overnight hospital. It was a 6-hour day hospital where I would go to have school. Initially I was nothing but distrusting of it because I thought they were going to shock my brain, and he said no they don't even do ECT on anyone under 18 anymore. And so I got distrusting again because I thought they were going to force medication at me and tie me to the bed and inject sedatives into me. I've heard a lot of horror stories about hospitals people go to if they have a problem with their mind.

The psychoanalyst said the place wasn't any of that, so now I am wondering if I should take that up...at first I was crying and panicking 'cause I thought the guy wanted to lock me up and drug me, but after that was ruled out...well. If it weren't at a hospital, it would've been nothing but a breath of fresh air to me, to go to a special school away from my "Phaaze," where there would be nothing to stress me out, no teachers yelling at the entire class for something one student did, no DETENTIONS (I never mentioned exactly how afraid I am of detentions even though I have not gotten one for four years, but just hearing the word makes me go nuts), but I would still be getting an education SOMEHOW...I would be free, and maybe I could love the fall season like I used to, right? Well, the idea of it all has given me lots of hope, but the thing is: I am not sure if I trust it since it is at a hospital. Because of the horror stories I've been told about hospitals dealing with mental problems, I have become quite distrusting of hospitals in general, even though this is just a go-there-to-get-a-six-hour-school-and-then-go-home hospital. Still, I just...don't trust hospitals. But I know this school-hospital will not be like the hellhole I go to now that is the whole reason I screech upon waking up every night. But still...I just...don't trust hospitals.

Basically, I need all the advice I can get about whether or not I should take this up or not. I go back to the psychoanalyst in two weeks, and then I can tell him if I wanna do it or not. Really, if it were not going to be at a hospital, even though I won't be staying overnight, I would say YES automatically and undeniably and probably run around the room in happy euphoria. But...it's a hospital. I just don't know whether I can trust it or not for that reason...

[GoodGodGentlemen]

Sounds good for you. It'll help you through your fear.

[Bub]

If you're in high school (this may sound bad) drop out and take college courses at your local community college. You can get your GED (which is practically the same as a high school diploma), and you only have to go for three hours a day.

[AuroraVirtuaFighter]

I'm not sure the SS office will accept that.

But anyway, after I decided that yes, I would take the offer to go to the special school, I found out I had two options: the special school OR home instruction (provided by the state). Everyone seems to think the home instruction will be better for me. I myself am just in incredible hopeful spirits right now, thinking that I only have two weeks left at my "Phaaze." In two weeks we are seeing the psychiatrist again to check my options and make arrangements.

[GoodGodGentlemen]

Will the psychoanalyst assist you in working out this fear of schools though? You'll continue seeing him while you are home schooled right?

[Xuro]

You shouldn't be afraid of hospitals like that. There's no way anyone would forcibly treat you for your school phobia or anything else unless you were threatening to kill people or something. You're probably too old for your parents to force you into any kind of treatment as well. I'm not sure what stories you've heard, but those were probably extreme circumstances, complete rumor, or the hospital doing something illegal.

[Chaotic Lionheart]

Don't know if my opinion matters but I think you should go for it your mind will be a ease and happier i hope it works out for you Aurora

[AuroraVirtuaFighter]

I decided yes to it, but my dad also decided he'd be lobbying for the state-provided home instruction instead, since he is alarmed by the hospital as well. (He's part of the whole reason I don't trust hospitals, so yeah.)