Turmoil and Hatred

GRAV · 10-21-2009, 06:41 AM

This will probably be pretty long....... but bare with me, k?

*sigh* About 3 months ago, my mum moved to the country, i didnt want to: mainly because all my life support is in the city (games, anime, friends and so on), so i stayed, i even had a place to stay.... but then some douche from the past came back and screwed my life up, and then one of his mates went and thought he would have a psycho fit and beat me up (i COULD have defended my self, but i would have destroyed the house a bit in the process, so i didnt).

And since my life was now in danger of some psychopath i chose to move back with my mum because that was the only place i could go on such short notice... so now i am in the country, cut off from my friends and so on, and now im going thru yet ANOTHER depression and all that, plus my mum is the main source of my stress and mental fatigue... which doesn't help my ailing health. *sigh*

And now centrelink is screwing around with my pay checks, no one will hire me, and im currently on a winning streak for being single....wait....that last one doesnt seem like a good thing..... ah well.... anyways, yeah, and now it looks like the only choice left for me to be near my friends is to abandon all of the things that make me me and live on the streets....*sigh* i REALY seriously wish my life would just simply work and go right for once....

RRRRRAAAAAAGGGHHHHH!!!! man this pisses me off.....

I plan stuff, the plan starts out flawlessly, it goes awesomely, and it ends in me somehow in pain of some sort.... and it realy confuses me.... seriously...

I just want something to go right long enough for me to gain something from it...

Well, now you know how i am at the moment... any advice on any of the above is, indeed, much appreciated....

Heh, suicide doesnt even come into my head anymore.... thats just how many times ive been thru this.....*sigh* yeah... i hit rock bottom....AGAIN! damned world and it's unjustness and all that....

Anyways, yeah, any help is much appreciated, thanks in advance^^

Xuro · 10-24-2009, 01:26 AM

What can you do? The only option is to try to get through it as best as you can. Focus on moving back to where you want to live and getting a job there. A quick search for centrelink brought up some kind of financial aid from the Australian government, so I'm not sure what kind of financial state you're in either. I'm not sure how important it is for you to have an intimate companion, but you may want to put that on hold for a bit. You should probably talk to your mother about the way you're feeling as well, if she's stressing you out and you truly feel this bad.
I suppose I know a little bit of what you might be going through. I just got a decent job last month that it looks like I might be able to keep after possibly a year of looking and a month of cleaning bathrooms but I have very few friends due to my shy, reserved, introverted nature and I have no ambition or will to do any extra work or projects (possibly due to depression) so my future as a game developer is looking bleak. Sorry I couldn't be of any real help, but I didn't see any other replies yet and thought you could use at least one.

Chaotic Lionheart · 10-24-2009, 08:56 PM

Grav why didnt you pm me

GRAV · 10-29-2009, 08:10 PM

Heh.... Xuro.... you have no idea how similar we are=/

Yeah, sorry Bro... i thought i would make a theadinstead...to be honest i completely forgot about being able to pm you or Mi'lady... ah well^^

DuMbAsS · 11-01-2009, 08:35 PM

I don't know how much this will help, but keep your chin up. There's a chance things will brighten up.

Btw, if I may ask, what did this douche do to mess you up. Other than sic his psychopathic homie on you.

Garland · 11-02-2009, 02:17 PM

Grav, after hearing your plight I must say I'm starting to feel a lot better now, what with my depression and all.

(not in a "your pain feeds my happiness" kind of way, more of a " Oh good, I'm not the only one out there with a tough life, and I can now appreciate what I do have" kind of way)

These threads are actually fairly therapeutic for me... Thanks Grav! Best of luck to you,

GRAV · 11-07-2009, 07:42 PM

*sigh* huh? nah, i just never liked him=/

That and he looks like a chick^^ Heheh

Heh. hey Garland, i think i prefer the whole "your sadness feeds my happniess" thing.... but im just weird like that...

And complicated doesnt even begin to describe my life=/

Thanks for the support peoples^^

10-21-2009, 06:41 AM	#1 (permalink)
GRAV Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Australia Age: 20 Posts: 473 Rep Power: 6	Turmoil and Hatred This will probably be pretty long....... but bare with me, k? sigh About 3 months ago, my mum moved to the country, i didnt want to: mainly because all my life support is in the city (games, anime, friends and so on), so i stayed, i even had a place to stay.... but then some douche from the past came back and screwed my life up, and then one of his mates went and thought he would have a psycho fit and beat me up (i COULD have defended my self, but i would have destroyed the house a bit in the process, so i didnt). And since my life was now in danger of some psychopath i chose to move back with my mum because that was the only place i could go on such short notice... so now i am in the country, cut off from my friends and so on, and now im going thru yet ANOTHER depression and all that, plus my mum is the main source of my stress and mental fatigue... which doesn't help my ailing health. sigh And now centrelink is screwing around with my pay checks, no one will hire me, and im currently on a winning streak for being single....wait....that last one doesnt seem like a good thing..... ah well.... anyways, yeah, and now it looks like the only choice left for me to be near my friends is to abandon all of the things that make me me and live on the streets....sigh i REALY seriously wish my life would just simply work and go right for once.... RRRRRAAAAAAGGGHHHHH!!!! man this pisses me off..... I plan stuff, the plan starts out flawlessly, it goes awesomely, and it ends in me somehow in pain of some sort.... and it realy confuses me.... seriously... I just want something to go right long enough for me to gain something from it... Well, now you know how i am at the moment... any advice on any of the above is, indeed, much appreciated.... Heh, suicide doesnt even come into my head anymore.... thats just how many times ive been thru this.....sigh yeah... i hit rock bottom....AGAIN! damned world and it's unjustness and all that.... Anyways, yeah, any help is much appreciated, thanks in advance^^ __________________ Ph34r t3h ub3r 1337 ski11z of t3h Magk Grlz. (\__/) (='.'=) This is Bunny. (")_(") Copy and paste Bunny into your signature to help him gain world domination. "You should be like-flexes arms- Boom boom fire power hahaha anyway yes it btter to talk to the parents before she starts sneaking into your room and laying on you naked(happened to me T_T) stalker are fun to mess with though heehee" - quoted From Chaotic L. nice one^_^ Personal body guard and slave for Rita Mordio

10-24-2009, 01:26 AM	#2 (permalink)
Xuro Junior Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Posts: 29 Rep Power: 1	Re: Turmoil and Hatred What can you do? The only option is to try to get through it as best as you can. Focus on moving back to where you want to live and getting a job there. A quick search for centrelink brought up some kind of financial aid from the Australian government, so I'm not sure what kind of financial state you're in either. I'm not sure how important it is for you to have an intimate companion, but you may want to put that on hold for a bit. You should probably talk to your mother about the way you're feeling as well, if she's stressing you out and you truly feel this bad. I suppose I know a little bit of what you might be going through. I just got a decent job last month that it looks like I might be able to keep after possibly a year of looking and a month of cleaning bathrooms but I have very few friends due to my shy, reserved, introverted nature and I have no ambition or will to do any extra work or projects (possibly due to depression) so my future as a game developer is looking bleak. Sorry I couldn't be of any real help, but I didn't see any other replies yet and thought you could use at least one.

10-24-2009, 08:56 PM	#3 (permalink)
Chaotic Lionheart Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: Between Light and Darkness Age: 20 Posts: 1,975 Rep Power: 5	Re: Turmoil and Hatred Grav why didnt you pm me __________________ Cream cream creamy cheese gummy bears in my head if you touch them I will kill you and you will be dead then I'll bring you gummy bears to your tombstone even if you dont want them

10-29-2009, 08:10 PM	#4 (permalink)
GRAV Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Australia Age: 20 Posts: 473 Rep Power: 6	Re: Turmoil and Hatred Heh.... Xuro.... you have no idea how similar we are=/ Yeah, sorry Bro... i thought i would make a theadinstead...to be honest i completely forgot about being able to pm you or Mi'lady... ah well^^ __________________ Ph34r t3h ub3r 1337 ski11z of t3h Magk Grlz. (\__/) (='.'=) This is Bunny. (")_(") Copy and paste Bunny into your signature to help him gain world domination. "You should be like-flexes arms- Boom boom fire power hahaha anyway yes it btter to talk to the parents before she starts sneaking into your room and laying on you naked(happened to me T_T) stalker are fun to mess with though heehee" - quoted From Chaotic L. nice one^_^ Personal body guard and slave for Rita Mordio

11-01-2009, 08:35 PM	#5 (permalink)
DuMbAsS Senior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: My room Age: 16 Posts: 953 Rep Power: 7	Re: Turmoil and Hatred I don't know how much this will help, but keep your chin up. There's a chance things will brighten up. Btw, if I may ask, what did this douche do to mess you up. Other than sic his psychopathic homie on you. __________________ Just call me Lai. (\__/) (='.'=) This is Bunny. (")_(") Copy and paste Bunny into your signature to help him gain world domination. Activate "Lurk" mode Lurk mode activated, would you like some spam with that Huh? It's that time of the year again. Where school begins to take more time out of the week. If I stop showing up for more than a week, I'm probably just dead from the weight of the books.

11-02-2009, 02:17 PM	#6 (permalink)
Garland Super Moderator Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Teh Chaos Shrine Age: 19 Posts: 1,910 Rep Power: 10	Re: Turmoil and Hatred Grav, after hearing your plight I must say I'm starting to feel a lot better now, what with my depression and all. (not in a "your pain feeds my happiness" kind of way, more of a " Oh good, I'm not the only one out there with a tough life, and I can now appreciate what I do have" kind of way) These threads are actually fairly therapeutic for me... Thanks Grav! Best of luck to you, __________________ I, Garland, Will knock you all down!!

11-07-2009, 07:42 PM	#7 (permalink)
GRAV Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Australia Age: 20 Posts: 473 Rep Power: 6	Re: Turmoil and Hatred sigh huh? nah, i just never liked him=/ That and he looks like a chick^^ Heheh Heh. hey Garland, i think i prefer the whole "your sadness feeds my happniess" thing.... but im just weird like that... And complicated doesnt even begin to describe my life=/ Thanks for the support peoples^^ __________________ Ph34r t3h ub3r 1337 ski11z of t3h Magk Grlz. (\__/) (='.'=) This is Bunny. (")_(") Copy and paste Bunny into your signature to help him gain world domination. "You should be like-flexes arms- Boom boom fire power hahaha anyway yes it btter to talk to the parents before she starts sneaking into your room and laying on you naked(happened to me T_T) stalker are fun to mess with though heehee" - quoted From Chaotic L. nice one^_^ Personal body guard and slave for Rita Mordio

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